For me, writing is therapeutic. And writing here, is even more therapeutic. This is because I don’t have the word counter that limits me like Twitter or Instagram. I also don’t have to think about the target audience. Probably because not many people are going to read what I write here. I can express myself and ramble around things the way I want to.

Today I overslept in the afternoon. Therefore, I am at my most night-owl mood right now at 1 AM. I dimmed the lights, prepared my tea, and put my minimal vibes playlist on. I want to write. I want to write about these past months. I feel like I have been too switched on lately. Working, studying, checking the latest news, clicking, flicking, sharing and in other words caring too much about the hustle and bustle of this world.

I’ve never liked to be busy. I always didn’t like those who say “I am busy.” or “I don’t have time.” but these days I feel like I am kinda like one of them(however I try to avoid those two sentences :D). I think I am more preoccupied than busy as Sadhguru says in this video. It is an inspiring video about time management and working.

For me, after the beginning of the pandemic, It has been difficult to stay mentally strong. I get drained faster than before. I don’t want to nag about the situation, because I already feel lucky being alive after a year of shock, horror and death. But what I want to say is that these days I am trying my best to find an equilibrium. Finding a balance between caring and letting go at the same time.

Let me clarify it with an example. At home, I am blessed to be able to witness a very beautiful sunset from the window everyday. Whenever I get overwhelmed, I take my time and watch the sunset. It is a fruitful pause for me.  It is very moving to see how this natural phenomenon happens everyday, slowly but surely, without giving a toss about every single thing that is going on around earth by us humans. I don’t want to say that this daily break makes me forget everything, but it gives me the opportunity to sort things out in my head.

There is a Persian adage which I really like and fortunately it is translated in different languages. It is about the ephemerality of the human condition. I repeat it to myself these days a lot: 

“This too shall pass.”

I think it is interesting to put effort on things that you want to achieve in life, but it is also important to consider the fact that even if you don’t reach all of those “goals” in your lifetime, It is not a big deal! I mean after all, this is just a temporal stay. This too shall pass.

If you read here, let me know about you. How much have you changed since last year? Have you found the balance? Can you care and let go at the same time?